I've shifted to many places and for that reason, I don't have best friend. I know people will come and go so I was not hoping for any of my friends to stay with me for a longer time. I didn't want them to be so loyal to me. I didn't hope for any meeting with them again. But, one thing I hope is they didn't hold any grudges towards me. I just want them to appreciate my presence as their friend before and always wish good things for me.
But, that was in the past, now I think I already have one best friend. With her, I'm all me. She is honest, very cool and kind of crazy sometimes. She's not so fussy. She is just the way I like.
But, I'm also worried about having a boy as a best friend. To me, he is just my chat friend. But to him, I'm more than that. He thinks both of us are getting closed each day. When he needs me, I'm sure gonna spend my time with him; chatting, help him solve his problems. I kind of like it. At least, there are somebody out there who thinks I'm an important person to their life. (We've met a few times)
Unfortunately, I made a mistake. I was trying to leave him. Try to keep him away because I think he's just a burden to me. He's just wasting my time. But, I never succeed. I thought after I left the place that I lived before, it would be easy for me to stay away from him. He also make new friends in new place. But, I was wrong. He is still trying to be connected with me. He never gave up.
Actually, I'm also afraid of being in love with him. I'm afraid by the way I used to treat him, spare some time with him would give him hope of falling into me. Although he is (already). The reason I did that to him was because, I didn't want to let him feel frustrated especially in a 'love' relationship. Stay friends is the best thing to do. Now I realized that all he wants was just a friend who can be trusted. And I'm the chosen one (he choose me). I like it when he's busy now, at least he won't feel lonely, but I'm still like his "reference book". No leaving a good guy after this. To me, he's to good to be true. An honest, diligent, open minded and hilarious guy. And no more lying.
You can choose, whether to be a good or bad friend. The decision is up to you. But if you want a better reward in the future, choose to "BE GOOD".
